My stuttering experience with Drugs

My stuttering experience with Drugs Hey everyone, my stuttering has reached a new low. I can’t even start a sentence without a 15-second blockade, and in half of my conversations, it takes a minute per sentence. I’m distancing myself from friends and only going out if we’re doing drugs. Weed: I started smoking two years ago to ease my stuttering, but it made me an introvert. The worst part is that I thought it made everything better, but it made everything worse. I quit six months ago and felt better, but I relapsed after four months. My brain told me it wasn’t as bad as before, but it messed me up again. Now, I’m a month clean and trying to stay that way. Alcohol: Alcohol is normalised here in Germany. My boss sometimes invites me ta a beer or two while at work. On the weekend I finally get to talk to women at parties and go full extrovert. The week and weekend are like night and day. I’m too drunk to even think about my stutter, and speaking goes smoothly. Alcohol would be the perfect drug if not for the hangovers the next day, which made my stuttering worse than before I started drinking. Molly/Ecstasy: Molly is great for connecting with friends. I did it once and didn’t have a blockade. I talked a bit slower, but it was smooth. Acid/LSD: I did acid with my friends in a forest once. I was tripping balls and didn’t talk much. I felt muted and in my own bubble. I didn’t notice a big difference when I spoke. Now that I’ve reached a new low, I’m constantly looking for new drugs to try. My friends and I want to take Molly this weekend, but I’ve come to the point where I only want to do it for the speech benefit. The other effects are irrelevant now that I have so much to tell my friends. I know the risks of abusing Molly. I’d rather try shrooms and find the deep cause of my sudden speech decline than revisit the Stuttering help group or talk to my therapist again because i find their exercises pretty dump and they didn’t help me much at all. Even ChatGPT has been a better therapist no joke. I felt pretty shit this morning so i wrote this to make yall folks aware that drugs may seem helpful with stuttering at first but you can quickly end up in a rabbit hole where you think you can only escape with even more drugs. Stay Safe