Couple of points I want to ask about here. - >I’ve had phases (1-2 years) throughout my life when my stuttering reduced quite a bit Did you ever look into what changed during these years, that your stutter was reduced? This sort of thing can be really hard to track, but maybe there's some insight to be gained there. - >I can’t think of remedies as I feel like I’ve tried everything [...] **speech therapy for 1.5 years when I was 19** [...] Why'd you stop? Why didn't you start again when you were having trouble? A stutter isn't "the same thing always and forever". A person changes, and stutter changes too. Whatever the effort and effect back then, it's most likely not going to be the same now. You're different, and the result will be different. - >I feel as if I’m so old that trying anything doesn’t really matter. Why do you think the option of stutter management is lost once you reach a certain age? Anecdotally, my stutter used to be a lot worse, and I'm 42 now. I've never communicated so much before in my life (due to the job I now have). I mention this to imply that even though it seems impossible in your current frame of mind, it's _not_ impossible. You're going to have to carry on moving towards something else. - I think you're doing yourself a disservice with these assumptions that seem to stop you from trying to approach differently the things you're doing (or not doing). Do you have people you can talk to about these things? Besides us, I mean. It helps expressing yourself and reflecting with others. - Oh and also, very importantly: It's not embarrassing to have a stutter. Ever. It might be a struggle, but you should never be ashamed of your voice. Use it as best you can - it's yours and that's all you should focus on. Focus on what you mean to say. Everything else can wait.