Logic tells me that I shouldn't give a shit about what people think. Unfortunately when it comes to my speech, logic doesn't win out, my emotions do 100% of the time. It's very confusing for me to talk because I always have 3-4 processes(thoughts) running in my head at the same time. Process: 1. Thinking of what to say 2. Trying not to stutter 3. Thinking about what the person thinks of me in that situation 4. Overall anxiety (I guess it can be merged with 3.) When all four of those thoughts are in my head, my mind becomes a cluster fuck. So I talk very basic and not too coherent.