Feeling hopeless

Feeling hopeless I have a stutter that’s on the milder side if I avoid probable words but becomes very noticeable if I don’t. I’m tried or living life with a 10 year old vocabulary because I can’t say other words due to my stutter. I’m tired of communication being a nightmare. Work is so exhausting because I’m required to do a lot of talking in groups and I sound like an idiot to people when i start stuttering. Meanwhile others present so fluently effortlessly. I sometimes feel suicidal some days but I’m to scared to go through with it. Stuttering really sucks wish there was a cure.