Please no! ❤️ I am 48. I know it’s hard to believe right now but things do get better. To meet other people, I do things that do not require a lot of talking, like hiking. Your peers made fun of you because they did not know any better. High school is a fish bowl with a mob mentality - real life is not like that. If you can afford it, please see a therapist. If you do not feel they take your concerns seriously, find a new one. I am on my third therapist and LOVE her. It helps so much to talk to an objective non-judgmental third party. I got bullied all the time in school so by the time I got to high school, I stopped talking. I still get made fun of, of course, but I mentally thank that person for letting me know they are an asshole up front and I should not waste my time on them. Life can be more difficult with a stutter and there were days where I could not get any lower, I felt. I always think of the things I would miss if I was gone: butterflies, bumblebees, a cool Autumn night, my pets, my family, new bands (love it when I “discover” a new band), travel, the smell of (clean) puppies and babies, a good bottle of wine, winning a board game (I never win), learning new skills. Please know you have friends here. Internet hug.