My suggestion is to find a good psychological therapist since you’ve already tried speech therapy. Maybe work on the shame/discomfort/anxieties around stuttering, a professional will help you through these things. There are many forms of therapeutical approaches that can help with this. Someone will love you for who you are, typed speech, stuttered speech, or not. The bridge between us as stutters and this reality is definitively: the belief that we do deserve love and to be heard regardless of the severity of our stuttering. That we don’t deserve self criticism, mocking or judgement, especially from ourselves, for this condition. At the end of the day, we must have compassion for ourselves regardless of how fluent we are. I think a much more manageable goal is this - I want to feel as if I deserve to live life and communicate with others despite having a stutter.