I'm almost 33 and in the same boat man..my life went nowhere fast & I coped with alcohol, weed, cigarettes & doing stupid shit as a kid wishing I would die. I never can imagine myself actually taking my own life but my life is horrible..from a kid up until now I was never taken seriously by most ppl. After awhile I just gave up..I've been to alot of speech therapy also in my teens & early 20s didn't do shit. I'm pretty much just going with the flow now & just watching the years go by until my life is over :/...I do keep some hope that life will get better somewhat but it's fading with every year.