i can almost 100% relate to this. my stutter is also quite bad and when i go the my speech therapist it feels like he sometimes thinks that i might have faked it as i dont stutter talking with him. why would i want to fake a fucking stutter when it for sure seems to be the most unacceptable thing to do in a social situation? i have been forced to laugh at my stutter when i have stuttered infront of people and it just makes you so fucking embarrassed and somehow weak in a way. when i first started to stutter my family members made fun of my stutter too, but when ive expressed how it made me feel they dont do it as much as before. i also dont have a lot of friends, but the few i have actually encourage me sometimes to speak up and to be more social, so i think that its quite important to open up to your friends about your stutter. even though they help me with my stutter, i fell like its really fucking hard to meet new people and to show my actual personality when i stutter, so thats something i can relate with you. i really hope that you to know that i relate to your feelings shit thats a lot to read, sorry