And it sounds like a cornball superiority complex fueled ass argument if I try to explain to people that the reason I stutter isn't that I'm slow, my brain's too fast. Or at least that's the only way I can think to describe it. For every verbal interaction my mind is running quadruple time simultaneously analyzing the context of the interaction, the response, facets of planning for various paths depending on what said person says back, how I'm being perceived, how they believed I perceived them, if I'm effectively communicating the idea that I have in my head etc. Later diagnosed ADHD doesn't help my case. It's like there's so much noise and chaos, that to speak I have to mentally scream over all of the noises, and when I get out of breath which is quite often, or my 'vocal cords' get sore from exhaustion, my ability to speak tanks and Im left there wondering why something seemingly so trivial in day to day existence feels like one of the most difficult performances of my life.