commentr/StutterApril 21, 2014

Content

Not like this always works for me, this is an unorthodox method to stay relaxed and I probably require some professional help for thinking this, but meh. I remember William Wallace's quote in Braveheart "all men die, it's only how". It provokes the thoughts that we're all human, we all die, essentially we're all equal. It's just a presentation. It's so insignificant. In 10 years time you'll look back and think "Wow, I could have said that so easily". In 100 years time you'll think nothing, because well, it wouldn't have mattered anymore and that's my point. Stuttering really doesn't matter, and since we only just live one time, I can't be fucked stuttering. Am I making sense? Also, just try to get comfortable. If you're going to be up there, you may as well just do it. It's worked for me in the past. I can either be stressed as shit and say it or just not be stressed and say it. Sure I might still stutter a bit, but it does help. Don't focus on the audience. I like to think of incidences in the past. I find myself laughing about how I finished speeches in the past years and was thinking "I could have done that so easy". Just makes me think that stuttering is all just a mindfuck. And this one is super important. Just don't think about it. Trust, trust, trust me. You know how you trust an elevator when you go down a floor. Trust this quote like you're trusting an elevator. Don't think about not stuttering, just say it. Thinking about it and analysing shit just makes you more prone to mistakes. I find that when I know what I need to say, there's a burden on me to say it perfectly. If no one knows what I'll be talking about, I can ramble on about crap and use "umm" and "ahh" all I need. Just take it easy is what I'm saying.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCoping & AdvocacyEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Overthinking & MonitoringMindset shiftHope & MotivationAcceptance & Pride