Your stutter didn't ruin your relationship--you did, by not being honest and open or willing to really try. Do *not* blame your stutter for that. That is all you. The sooner you accept that accountability as a flaw you actually have control over, the faster you'll become the kind of partner someone else deserves. Stutterers will always be stutterers. We have so little control over this. Take the things you do have control over and do something with them. I've been in a relationship for 15 years. I'm not going to say my disfluency has no negative impact, because it does. But it's something that can be overcome. There are days when I don't have the energy to engage him in a lengthy discussion, or times when I'm frustrated that I'm only able to express a fraction of my side of an argument, or moments that I watch *him* get frustrated that I keep repeating the same sound and can't move the conversation forward. Sometimes it's really shitty, I'm not even gonna front. But at the end of the day, he's my advocate. He's the guy who makes a phone call for me when I've spent my morning having an anxiety attack over it, or the person who repeats my name and address to the receptionist at my doctor's office, or the dude who explains to family and friends that if I don't seem talkative, it's nothing personal, I just don't have much energy that day and talking takes so much of it. He's my teammate, through and through. He has my back. So I owe it to him to try. When I'm feeling shitty about something, or have a really great story to share, or even if I just want to debate political bullshit, I know it'll be a battle and I know I'll get frustrated, but I give it my best shot, because I want this guy to really *know* me, and communication is the only way that's going to happen. You've gotta let someone have your back.