commentr/StutterSeptember 27, 2016

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I have a mild stuttering disorder. In some situations I'm very fluent: with close family members (wife, sisters, parents), with people that I feel confortable (shy people or people in a lower social status), short conversation with strangers or friends. In others I almost always stutter: public speech, arguing in a discussion, telling a long story. It was worst in the past, in some situations I couldn't even say my name to a stranger. 2 years ago my job had a huge change, and they decided that me and my coworkers would give presentations to the other employees. Then it forced me to search for professional treatment. I started to see a phonoaudiologist specialized in stuttering. She gave me some speech exercises (with lips and tongue movements) and I still don't know if was the exercises but I started to stutter less during the presentations. The funny thing is that I didn't stuttered at all in my appointments. I felt mentally confortable during the appointments and it made me think that my stutter is strongly affected by my mental state (stress, tiredness, anxiety, insecurity, fear). After a few months my exneighbor recieved a mail with an invite to a public speech course. I decided to sign in to that course. It was veeeeery challenging. Every week I needed to speech to a group of 8 to 10 random people about a topic that I would only know a few minutes before. They recorded on video. I had some blocks during every speech and during the blocks, in my mind I was having a really hard time, but I could see in the videos that it was a minor thing, almost unnoticeable, it didn't made my speech perfect but was far from a disaster. Before that, during the blocks I used to panic sometimes, making harder to outcome it. Today I can make presentations to large groups, such as 30-50 people. The fear and the blocks are there but is much more easier then before. Stutter is still a problem during arguing in a discussion, telling a long story or other stressfull situations. I'll focus on that situations now. I think I will try to challenge me more and more, step by step.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Anticipating StutteringAvoidance & SubstitutionOverthinking & MonitoringPreparation & RehearsalStress & Fight/FlightAnxiety & Social Judgment

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ordering_service_encounterpublic_speakingsaying_name_introductionanticipationemotional_statephysical_state