it's as if i have no energy to talk. i got used to not talking, that i'd rather not exert energy to do it. i don't call. i prefer face to face. how can one regain that energy? cocaine?)
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it's as if i have no energy to talk. i got used to not talking, that i'd rather not exert energy to do it. i don't call. i prefer face to face. how can one regain that energy? cocaine?) I guess anyone has such moments, but for some it seems almost effortless. especially for ladies. yeah, their left hemisphere is more active/developed. I think I read somewhere, a research revealed people with speech imperfection have less grey matter in their back of the head/cerebellum where speech center is located. some gentlemen here suggested that the cause is not known, that frontal cortex is a factor. while it's true. I really believe back of the head (cerebellum or some part in the back) control motor motions and is directly connected to the throat muscles which play a huge role in speech. In other words, if you have a lot of energy there, and can control your throat muscles very well, you can GREATLY improve your speech. In my case, it's the sinus attacks I get. So until I can get the surgery I can't progress much. Also I'm not speaking my native lately, only my 3rd language, while I live where I'm required to speak my 4th language. And I'm most fluent in my second native language and english(3rd). Funny how that is. Ah, also, here in this new apartment in Jp, I have neighbours on FOUR SIDES. You can't even sing with liberty. I used to sing in my previous place. Here the country is so homogeneous, that whatever you do will draw attention. And the walls are pretty much just to block the view. They don't block any sound. I can hear my neighbours moaning during fun-time). I think that's karma, cause when I was 21, I used to bang my then GF 27 times a week. I'm not kidding! At that age, you could drink a battery acid and wake up fine the next morning)). Also, I kind of slipped and landed on the back of my head like 4,5 years ago. Fucked up, huh? I just recently noticed real symptoms and started taking care of it only about a year ago. Woohoo. Power of sharing. "Nothing can cheer me up now..... except cocaine" haha. Jk. never tried, and here it's pretty strict.