Hey, there is no reason to killing yourself because of stuttering... Don’t get me wrong, stuttering is mentaly exhausting really, but there is always somebody with worse problems. I am a stutterer myself and sometime I have same thoughts as you. But ! Don’t let your stutter stopping you from the life you wanna live. You can do whatever you want even as a stutterer. Trust me. Just keep fightning. I must say, that being a stutterer makes me even stronger. Wish you luck. PS: sorry for my English. My writing skills aren’t good.