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My man! Two years and a half in and I can truly say: it's worse in your mind that it really is. For real, man. Before starting college I was fucking TERRIFIED. "What I'm gonna do?" "What they gonna think?" "How I'm gonna ask things?". To be honest the first year of college is when I got "in touch" (?) with my stutter and myself because it makes you to really go out there and talk to a shit ton of people. When I made presentations I usually stuttered almost every word and sweat like a mofo, but I realized people didn't give a single shit and were very supportive about it. Comments like "Don't worry, man. Take your time" really made me feel good. Of course some people are gonna laugh and tease a little, but you gotta accept it. I mean, it's **funny** seeing a guy nervously saying a word over and over again, or not being able to say a word. You gotta embrace it and realize you're not the victim, they laugh at the actual stutter, not at you, if that makes any sense. Once you get past that first couple of months where everything is new and scary, you start getting used to it and being more relax. My stutter peaked when I first joined but then it almost went away. First I was terrified about making PowerPoints or speaking in class but then I started to see it as a practice and actually looked forward to them. Things like "Ok last time I just stammered twice. We're gonna make it better" until it got to the point where I actually was able to speak fucking fluent this year. Not 100%" good, but taking pauses and breathing and speaking like a normal-is person! I actually think college made my stutter affect me less, therefore me stuttering less. A lot less. Since it put me on the worst scenarios I've could of imagine, and realized it wasn't that bad after all. Made me see the worst thing that could happen where some shit heads laughing, and that's it. Many times I'd laugh with them and say "Fuck yall", brush it off and continue talking like nothing happened. Remember: Takes pauses if you feel like you're choking. Don't force the words out. Stop and breath. **Fucking breath**. Speak slower and don't try to rush the words just to finish talking. Hear yourself and go at a slower pace if you feel the words stumbling/rushing out. Think what are you gonna say before you speak to anyone. Many times I think "I'm gonna stutter" even before thinking what the fuck I'm gonna say so I stutter because I don't really know what to say. I believe half the battle is in the mind and fortunately you have a lot of power in it, you just gotta believe it. Good luck, man! College is so fucking fun. Hope you the best! PM me if you wanna tell someone how it goes within the first days or something. :)