I am gonna be honest and maybe a little harsh with you. Countless of people who stutter are out there living their lives and owning it. I've had a guy in my high school class who stuttered up to the point of almost severe stutter who didn't seem to mind at all and who joked about it the whole time. And guess what? People liked him and he had a lot of friends, big part being his attitude towards his stutter and his life. It's not stutter that's doing this to you, it's your attitude. How do you not get bored living life that way? How do you not get pissed off at yourself for not trying to change the way you look at it? My guess is that you've made peace with yourself. It's easier to say "I can't" than "I don't want to". People are giving you chances daily to change that and you are pushing them away and closing back into your little safe zone. Realize that you have to change. You CAN be happy. You CAN have meaningful life. You CAN have friends and relationships. There's post here from a while back where some girl went to interview for a job and stuttered the whole time. Do you think people thought it's embarrassing or pathetic? No, they respected her for owning it up and trying to do something with her life. So please, don't talk about misery and death. Stutter is not nearly enough reason to wish death upon yourself. Change your attitude and it will change your life. Don't think of your situation as something you have to make peace with. Think of it as something you CAN and you WILL change. How people experience and see world and things around them is in huge part influenced by themselves and their emotions. Be that change that will help you see things in different light. Give people chance and give yourself a chance. Don't live your life like that when you don't have to. Next time someone speaks to you, give them a chance. Talk to them, stutter the whole time. You will come across people who will mind that, even those who will laugh, but a lot of them will not think less about you because of your stutter. So, relationship is not impossibility for you, you do have the means to make friends, you do have the reason to live and you do have all it takes to change your life and be someone you have always wanted to be. But it won't happen without you taking step out of your comfort zone and giving it all you have to change. I have a stutter. And it did a lot of harm to me when I was younger. But after some time you realize that it's YOU doing that to yourself, not stutter or other people so I never let it bind me and not let me live to my full potential. I have friends, I have girlfriends, I even moved countries for college and went to live in completely different surrounding in a dorm room surrounded by countless new people I had to make friends with. Was it hard? It was hard AS FUCK. But here I am two years later being completely different person with completely different approach because I said "fuck this" and went out of my comfort zone. I am not saying this to praise myself, but to show you it's not impossible. For the end, here's one quote of Terry Crews that did a lot for me: "I constantly get out of my comfort zone. Looking cool is the easiest way to mediocrity. The coolest guy in my high school ended up working in a car wash. Once you push yourself into something new, and whole new world of opportunities opens up. But, you might get hurt, in fact you WILL get hurt. But amazingly when you heal - you are somewhere you've never been before. Sorry if I was being a little harsh but I think it's sometimes the best way to approach. Be sure to check videos of BrocaBrothers. That's example of two guys who went out of their comfort zones and changed the way they look at stutter. And look where it brought them.