I understand 100% what you're going through, I've also struggled saying my name in the past. It felt so humiliating when I had to present myself in front of the whole class when I was at uni. I had big social anxiety with very low self esteem, it affected all areas of my life. Then, I started to do things I enjoyed, while trying to get out of my comfort zone, and it worked great. One thing I did that helped me a lot, was to sign up in an improv class, it helped me in 2 ways: - classes were very interesting, we had exercises revolving around breathing, diction, emotion control, and so many exercises that helped me with the fear of speaking in front of other people. - I was able to make friends with the improv group, which helped me raise my self esteem. This is one of the things that helped me, maybe it will help you too if you tried it, or maybe you'll find someone else. One thing about stuttering is that most of the time it's a mental block, you just have to learn how to control it. I'm sure it will be fine, just take your time