It used to scare me how easily it seemed to randomly appear but I realized that wasn't true. After the stutter I could likely say it again with ease unless the situation hasn't subsided for instance. So there was more than any word, sound, etc. There was a specific situational awareness. The thing that probably throws people off is when it happens outside of the situation. Our memories start their own chain reaction otherwise there would be no such thing as post traumatic stress. But that's also why i stressed a little the part about forgetting it and giving ourselves a break. When I was a part of the discord and then when I came back on here, I'd think about stuttering a lot more often, out of shear curiosity or to have something to talk about, to try something since I'm not so afraid of it and speak to costumers all the time now but it's when I forget all about it and really just don't care anymore...have other things on my mind basically where stuttering is not the last of it but not even on the list...that's when it's just so easy, either I don't stutter at all or I don't remember and when I do it's so easy to carry on because it's just not on my mind after the fact. The truth is, when there is a health event, we tend to forget everything. What ever we thought or worried about, stuttering or anything else, when a real health scare inevitably comes our way because we are only human, everything else is forgotten. That wasn't exactly my case fortunately but similar kind of things just took precedent and I realized as I'd randomly be reminded that...hey I am still technically a stutterer, that I never really had to try...I just had to forget.