So much feels.... Especcialy the part of anticpating in sound, rather than thought. It's so rooted in our brains. I've found a video (from this sub) that explains it IMO spot-on: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gjPNBugBVg From 9;25 he talks about secret stutters, which I think you can realte to (just as myself) But seriously, find help.I'm not sure where you live but here in Western-Europe there are numerous speech therapies. I'm not sure what the succesrate is, but the companies claim a 90-100% succesrate. Most of these therapies cost around €1500, but most of it is covered by healthcare. Best of luck, and apolgies for my shitty English.