P.s. just some more things i thought were important to add.. I hope you will one day find some way to make this part of your life easier. And I don't think you should give up on the prospect of that. I don't mean at all to stop stuttering/stutter less, but to feel more safe and comfortable in your existence. As you're on the spectrum, I don't know how far you've unmasked/how you function with that, but there are so many 'alternative' ways of existing beyond society's norms! I think we on the spectrum often have so much to discover about ourselves, especially in our 20s, like realising how to regulate/that we never regulated properly once in our life because we were masking constantly before, etc. And I feel like there's a distinct hope in that.. You are so much more than your stutter or any disability you have, Shauna. Because of your disabilities, you have a unique perspective on what it is to exist as a human, and this can be of *so much* value to others, even though they may reject or invisibilise it at first glance. If you feel the inclination to write of your experiences in life and how your stutter and/or autism has shaped it, I encourage you to write! And share that, so others might understand better how different life can be with a disability. Maybe if more people without disabilities understood, disability support would be easier to get/less rare.