Hii! I've had a similar outbreak recently. I've noticed during my online presentations that I stutter so much that my teachers think I'm having issues with my connection (yikes) and just take over for me. I'm starting university in a couple of months too, so I'm interested to see how my stutter behaves then... With my limited experience, the only thing I can say is that it comes back and goes away periodically, so don't worry, it will die down again. As for the stem of this pattern I have yet to determine it myself, but these kind of issues are very individualistic by nature so perhaps it wouldn't be helpful even if I did know. For me, I don't stutter at all when I'm reading to myself, hell, I can even rap; but as soon as I have to talk to other people, even in scenarios as mundane as to my own friends and family, I encounter blockage after blockage and simply can't get the words out. But at least I know there's nothing physically preventing me from talking, it's all in my head, so I can change it. If you ever need motivation, just remember that Joe Biden and Ed Sheeran had stutters too, but did that stop them? Hell no. And it's not just them, there are so many people going through the exact same thing. If they can persevere, so can we <3 P.S I noticed you feel embarrassed by whats happening to you. And trust me, no one understands you more than I do. But from what I've seen, people either don't pick up on my speech problems or know better than to bring them up. Try to remember that 1) its nothing to be embarrassed about, 2) mature people are gonna forget about it right away (if they noticed it at all), 3) the only way we can get better is by talking despite our instincts pleading us not to, so who gives a shit about what other people think, this is about you and your life. If letting you express yourself properly is a bother to them, they probably didn't even wanna talk to you in the first place. Maybe try raising your hand in class or talking to coworkers if you're employed. The first few times are probably gonna feel rough and "humiliating", but if you keep doing it, what do you really have to be afraid of? That's all your choice of course, you have to determine what method would work for you in the longterm.