Scared 😱 about beginning adulthood? just venting

Scared 😱 about beginning adulthood? just venting Guys , i ve been active on this sub reddit quite a bit recently for the past few days The main reason for this is that this is the only place i can connect to people that have something common with me which is stuttering Right now I’m 17 , and i ll be turning 18 in about 7 months. God , i always have dreaded this age. I feel like i cant adult with my speech impediment. I fear that i wont be able to become independent financially and other aspects in life like having a family etc due to not being able to find a job. I wont be able to handle calls which for most adults is something they dont give s second thought. I would still sound like a child by not being to use complex vocabulary which i know i have. I wont be able to take part in discussion in an adult way People will look at me like as if im a child stuck inside an adult’s body I know most people are really excited about this age as it gives them freedom. But im absolutely terrified because without my parents on my side , i wont be able to live on my own , find a job , find a significant other ,find an apartment, have and raise kids , be financially secure. I know i may be thinking too much but psychological aspect of stuttering has really taken a toll on me For the past few days ive really isolated my self . I stay all day in my parents home, not talk to friends and go out with them. Socialize , which i love doing . People my age are rarely found at home doing nothing. They are always out having fun. I sometimes feel like im stuck inside an introverts body I feel like if i develop myself , improve in other aspects , no matter what i do ,nothing would compensate for my inability to express myself Lets say i have gotten a masters degree in a certain subject , whats the use of it if i cant express the immense amount of knowledge that i have imprisoned within the walls of my brain . People will think stupid of me regardless of what knowledge i have unless im able to express it. People who are dumb and know nothing sound much smarter and mature than me I’ve gotten all A’s and A*’s in my igcse but it doesnt look that way when you see me sitting in a class. Now ill go ahead and tell you my daily routine for the past few months First i wake up in the morning , brush my teeth , go to the gym , come back home take a shower eat breakfast Go to the school , being a mute person , just node my head to what teachers is saying Having opinions in my mind that are buried inside me not able to get out. Then i come back home , all depressed !eat lunch , binge watch youtube videos , study 📖 for my exams , do a bit venting on this subreddit , go to sleep and repeat I really am not happy with my life right now . Its so boring. I want to do something that i love. This is clearly not a healthy way of living life as an adult. The only thing im excited 😜 about turning 18 is having a driving license