Hey! I'm not really interested in romantic relationships at the moment... But I can understand what you feel about the difficulty in cultivating relationships in general. I too find it hard to have normal friendships because of the social anxiety, self-consciousness and constant insecurity I feel. I even had a similar experience to yours, with a classmate with whom I had a good friendship. We were quite close, but when he decided to move away from my college, he just completely blocked me on all social media platforms as if he wanted to cut me out of his life... Even though there was absolutely no reason why he should do that. It was a very healthy, peaceful friendship... So I understand how it hurts, especially when you already feel inferior... I hope you meet better people and find the right person in the future...💜🪻 All the best.😊