I'm 22 and have been stuttering all my life as well, and have experienced nearly everything you mentioned. My father had anger management issues when I was a kid and life was pretty stressful at times. He's been better as time goes on and has been much more understanding and helpful with my stutter. The biggest breakthrough for me as far as being comfortable with my stutter and identifying myself as a person who stutters, was becoming a Communication Sciences & Disorders Major. Taking the required Fluency Disorders class helped me understand a lot about how and why stuttering happens (though often there aren't any definite answers). So over the last couple years I've eased into being comfortable with my own stutter, and have gradually ceased caring what other people's reactions are. Become comfortable with your stutter, and others will be too. If you show signs of being nervous or awkward, they'll feel awkward too. It's really helpful when you see them realizing you stutter, to just tell them you stutter, and even make light of it through joking around, e.g. "so sometimes it takes me a little longer to get words out haha." For example, at the start of each new semester when I have new classes, during introductions the first thing I do is tell people I stutter and that I'm very comfortable with it so don't be afraid to talk to me or call on me in class, etc. See an SLP again. A good one. I had shitty ones too as a kid but there are some very helpful ones out there. Though chances of full recovery from stuttering are not likely, there's tons of compensatory techniques you can use, and often times I can use them to completely mask my stutter. As I said it really helps to just start accepting your stutter and from there on working on it gradually over time. And educate yourself about it. Try to get an idea of why you think you stutter, and seek out to fix the things you think may be making it worse. Hope that helps ;)