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Hate having a stutter This stutter ruined my life , I dropped out in 9th grade and was smoking weed to not think about it everyday for 10 yrs and I'm 24 now with no money, no more job, I worked at McDonald's as a cook for 3 yrs and I got Nothing while still living with my grandmother and father. They seem to not care about my stutter and think I can easily fix it by doing breathing techniques or sing talking. Whenever we have our little arguments sometimes I get mocked and told to just either end it or leave and if I did leave I'll be in the streets. I don't know how much I can take this I constantly think about suicide everyday for many years for as long as I been stuttering as a kid in grade school. I can't do phone calls or even say my name to holding conversations. I literally stutter on every word and have to repeat whole sentences daily . The stress is making it worse and I just don't know what to do anymore. I know I'm a failure and I habe yet to find anyone in my shoes . I wasted majority of my money on alcohol and weed cause I loved the feeling of being "normal" probably makes no sense and I ain't looking for sympathy from anyone. I just don't know how some ppl with a decent stutter or a massive stutter can go on in life. Currently working on my ged through online schooling and soon will be in zoom classes which scares me alot . I'd pray to God to take away my stutter or to let me die in my sleep. I'm sorry for rant I just got nobody to talk to about any of this. I been suggested to see a speech therapist but how would they know what it's like to stutter if they don't stutter themselves.