I just joined reddit about an hour ago and stuttering was the first subreddit that I joined. Others may come here and tell you that you should seek help but I must say I have thought of suicide a million times. I understand when people make fun of me especially at high school or college age, but it killed me from inside when my own parents did it a couple of times. What hurt even more than that was the fact that I didn’t have the courage to end it. After a while I decided to distance myself from people to forget this deformity that I was born with and their pity and ridicule. :( I am glad that my speech has improved a lot over the past year but I still choose a life of solitude. I’ve got used to it.