You've got your identity so wrapped up in being a unjust victim that you cling to it as hard as you can. But does it do you any good. Many of us here have severe stutters, but we also hold jobs, make friends, and live our lives. I think the best thing for you is to meet other people who stutter. If you live in the US, check www.westutter.org to look for local NSA chapters. I think it's the best thing for us.