Ik everyone around me understands my struggle or they try to, but still there is this void which doesn't get filled by anyone's empathy. I don't want anyone's sympathy. I am just so fed up with all the obstacles that stammering has laid in front of me, it's just so mentally taxing, it becomes so unbearable that I sometimes think of ending my life. Ughhh. Idk why God made me so ambitious when he had to add this painstaking trait to my personality. And tbh I don't think having a simple dream of being financially independent and being able to help my family's financial circumstances should be called being ambitious. It's bare minimum. Idk whom to blame.