Hah seriously that is strange. It's great to see someone so similar to me have this problem resolved, it's going to really motivate me to do the same. As for holding it in, I definitely used and it really hurt but I've slowly gotten to the point where I'm not afraid to talk about it anymore. I figure the people I'm talking to obviously know I have this problem, why should I pretend it's not and make them feel awkward. I was hoping not to have to spend that much money but I think deep down I knew it would cost quite a bit of time and money. Thanks so much for sharing and for your advice and encouragement. I can't say I'm going to see a therapist right away but it's going to happen as soon as I can afford one.