Yes, I can relate to this. I’m also imagining the judgment of other and I’m aware of that. The last few years my stuttering got worse again. I just quit therapy because this type did not work for me. I am trying to get rid of all the tricks and just let it happen. But in the mean time I get frustrated when I’m blocking or stuck on a vowel for like 5 seconds straight. I still have no answer how I can stop caring about what other people might think of me. I don’t know how I can turn that off in my brain yet.